Love..

Live with love, full of love and free to love

1. Listen to your heart, for it is so much smarter than you are. When it feels right, feel the fear, and love anyway. There will never be fearless way of loving or living in your lifetime.

2. Don't let our fear of rejection and getting hurt kill your desires or steal your dreams.

3. Love is choice and if you embrace it wholeheartedly, you are never going to lose it.

4. Love teaches you to become a better human being. Restore your faith in love and become emotionally available to each other. Put your fears and your past behind and accept this lesson.

5. Become loveable by being loving. Learn to trust by trusting yourself 1st.

6. Giving in to love does not mean losing yourself.

7. Love is not a commodity that is supposed to make you happy.

8. Love has so many solutions than it has problems.

9. Once you can understand that love is not something to be found, rather it is in you to be shared, you can love wholeheartedly without fear.

10. Don't turn your back on love everytime it touches you, because when you give up on love, you give up on yourself.

You can be loved even if you are not perfect,

You can be loved just as you are,

You can be loved while keeping your course of life,

You can be loved without getting lost in love,

You can be loved while persuing your life's dream,

You can be loved; let go and let be,

Love,
yin

One peaceful day

Slept for 12 hours straight yesterday, have no idea why I'm so exhausted. Later on that day, I helped mom and dad for some gardening in the evening. Its been months since the last time we had gardening. Raked leafs and cut flowers while having a good laugh with bro. I found some adorable clovers at the garden and collected them up. Hope can make out something nice from them. It's just a peaceful and lovely day. Some pics from yesterday:

Dad trimming up the trees

Look what bro and i found in the garden, isn't that nice? Too bad they can't be eaten..

Love,
yin

Great Day!

Had a totally great and unforgettable day yesterday. Hanged out with Ian at Metro Point and Metro Kajang after eating lunch at Pizza Hut. I ate pizza twice alone in this week..swt..but still LOVE IT! hahahah! Looked around for any nice cake to buy for Mr. Ng cuz we're going to his party later on. Mr. Ng had a party for his ex-SPM 08 students in his house. We saw a nice fruit cake at Baker's Cottage so decided to buy it. It ended up an ice cream cake actually, but anyway Mr. Ng just msged me that the cake was very delicious so don't care lar its a ice cream or sponge or mousse cake. Something memorable and sweet happened between the journey from Metro Kajang to home..something that i prefer to keep only in my memory forever. Anyway, thanks my dear Ian=)Just realise how important the word "trust" in a relationship. K..so after that, we went back my hse for a while cuz i need to refresh myself before going to the party. I'm actually very glad to see my bro and Ian get along very well. My dad drove us to Mr. Ng's hse bout 6 pm. Actually we went there early cuz the plan was to help out Mr. Ng but our help was not required there since Mr. Ng's siblings and relative were there already to help. So, both of us took a stroll outside and walked all the way to Wei Wei and Ian's friend Chong Sen house ( Yes, they live next to each other). Its like a "walk to remember", the surrounding is so peaceful, the sun is setting, ahhh..you can imagine the scenery..lol..Dropped by Wei Wei hse for a while then walked back to Mr. Ng's hse again. The party really got started at 8 pm. Quite a number of student came, met my old tuitions friends there. Chatted a lot with them about their plans after this. We had steamboat yesterday, lotzsa food bought by Mr. Ng. There's this fishcake which has love shape, so cuteee.wonder where Mr. Ng bought them from. After makan makan, everone started to get high especially Ian..haha! He sang karaoke, not one song but damn MANY songs until i forgot how many. And hey! his voice is not bad after all. He sang " Truly Madly Deeply" for me too, so sweet of him:) Oh ya! Mr. Ng sang a a few songs too, omgosh, I couldnt believe Mr. Ng can sing so well. I guessed he must have practice singing every single day. The karaoke session continued even until after I went back about 12. Again..i wish i could turn back time :)Here are some pics from yesterday:

The cake for Mr. Ng

My lovely teacher

Us

Ian and me

Love this one:P

p/s: Jie, thanks for the "My Valentine" music score, I'll try it:)

Love,
yin

Monotonous days..

Finally, I'm updating my blog cuz someone got bored reading my old posts..haha!Life have turn back into monotonous again after last Saturday. Nothing much happening to me. I am just busy with all the scholarship stuff. 3 more essays to go..craapp. Very lazy to complete them. Move your mind, brain and butt, wenyin!! Until now, i had completed 9 scholarship forms, i can even do sambil tutup mata liao cuz every single one ask the same things. Today i went to Convent my certify my certificates. Have to go there twice today. Wanna know the reason? Its because there's this person here so dumb that she forgot to bring along her original certificates and teacher doesnt want to certify it without looking at the original one. So, this idiot had to drive all the way back again then went to school again.Yes! That idiot is no other than ME! I used like less than 10 mins to reach home cuz the traffic in the morning was smooth. so kinda speeded a little.The office lady asked me when i reached there again, "You tinggal sangat dekat kah? Cepatnya!". I told her my house "very near" only. hahahah! Lucky pejabat was opened and PN.A and Pn. H were there. Meet Jeeva and Mishantini there. They were there for the LCCI forms. Fortunately for me I meet Jeeva there because she told me that I have to take my new slip peperikssan with the LCCI grade on it. So, I changed my old one from pejabat. I'm quite happy cuz my LCCI got 1 also.Later on have to fill in the LCCI borang to obtain my certificate. Pn.H was jokingly saying that by the time she sign all my certs, her hand will go numb cuz i asked her to certify 5 sets. I'll be going to collect them on Friday.Then, I followed Jeeva and her sis to Chip Lee to buy some papers and went around Kjg alone searching for something.Went home after that.

I actually find myself looking forward for this Saturday to attend Mr. Ng's party. I bet there will be much fun there. But before that, essays......urghhh...help me!

This is how I feel currently

But no matter how busy am I, I still want to thank my dear for his support and most important your poem!haha..

Love,
yin

Tell me is this a dream?

If this is really a dream, then its a heck damn good dream and I'll choose to stay in this dream forever. If you know I'm dreaming, just don't wake me up, let me in it for eternity,can I. There's only one word to describe it..unbelievable! The moment of getting the result almost killed me, I'm serious! When you looked around, everyone is either crying or laughing or with no emotions, and you stood there, not knowing your faith. Will God answer your prayers? The moment of knowing the truth was the best moment in my entire life, i couldn't believe my eyes, my ears, my mind. Everything seems to be like a dream, it happened so fast, everything like revolving around you without your conscious. I remembered I hugged Glynn so tight, my tears just fell down as my heart went into a huge relief. Couldn't remembered how many ppl came about and said Congratulations! I don't remembered who I talked to, thanked, smiled,hugged, and cried. But i really appreciate all their supports. To every single person out there, thank you all! The thing i remembered was I called Dad. When I heard his voice, i broke down in front of everyone. I dint give a damn care bout my puffy look or anything. I cried for like 5 minutes before I couldn't speak properly to him. He kept on asked me to calmed down cuz he couldn't listened to what i was trying to say. Apparently, my tear duct couldn't close..lol..after telling dad, I called mom. Then I started crying again even until after I called Jie in Russia. Actually God answered not one but two of my prayers! I prayed hard for Ian too and seems like God loves him too. He got an excellent result and I bet he will be smiling while sleeping today. Congrats my dear! I'm really proud of you and my parents sent their deepest Congratulations to you too. What happened today was just...totally unbelievable! Last night I was telling my parents that most prob prob I'll only get lk 10 As...12 A1? Now i really do believe in miracle..

Went out around kajang with Glynn, Charissa, Grace and Nancy after all those drama. Lepak at McD for awhile, then went to pharmacy cuz Nancy needed to buy her collection of medicine before she go NS soon. Aww..I'll definitely miss her for that 3 months. After that, we walked around Metro Plaza, windowed shopping. Then, Charissa and Glynn decided to go to Hairazone, Charissa got her hair washed and trimmed while Glynn had a hair wash. Om gosh! Their hair was damn straight after all the washing and blow drying. Mom came by to pick me up at 4.30 then went home.

Love,
yin

A lovely day of March

I went out today to Mid Valley with Ian today since he got an off day from work. As usual, I met him up at the kjg train station at 10 am. If there's one thing we can improve on our relationship, I say we must adjust our time system..wait a minute...maybe its me the only person who needs to readjust it. Apparently, both of us run on a diff time system, he on "Ian's time system" while I'm on "Chen's family time system". The difference is his time syatem is always at least half an hour early, my system on the other hand usually late fwith no fix time. Haha..feel so bad cuz he have to wait every single time we went out. Ok..back to the topic of the day, so, finally met him up, wait for the train, chatted, laughed, talked more, reached MV at 10.45 am. We eventually decided to watch "Marley & Me" by Owen Wilson and Jeniffer Aniston. The story line was okay and simple, but damn, the last part was so touching, made me cried the hell out of me..i'm not going into details about that cry thing..haha..Later, we walked around, windowed shopping, ate a bread from Cinnfully Delicious which was exactly sinfully delicious, walked around, then ate again...at Delifrance. Spent sometime there talking to him, letting everything out, listening to his words, laughed, joked, and took pics. I love the "silent moment" between both of us..the way you look a me, your gaze seems to touch my soul. Since we still got loads of time after "2nd" lunch, we went to Pets Wonderland to take a look at the puppies there. Gawd!! They are still as cute ever. We did saw a puppy Husky there and Ian was so damn excited to look at them. Yea..he really wished to own one. Then, we walked around again, have a good time talking. So, after walking almost every floor, past by almost every single shops, we finally decided to go home since its already 5 something. Oh man..the train station was so packed.We actually waited for the third train arrived only we managed to get up on it. But anyway, since we not rushing to anywhere, so we dint really mind waiting cuz it gave us opportunity to stay with each other longer. I think I have changed a lot in the sense that I'm more open into expressing my feeling now, have I? All thanks to Ian who brainwashed me every single day and i too infulenced by him.I think jie will agree with this, cuz she know what kind a person am I last time. We reached kjg at 6 something, mom and dad came to pick us up, dropped him at Asa Jaya bus stop then finally reached home. That's so much fun today, oh i just wish i could turn back time again..

I'm munching the Famous Amos cookies now, can you believe it, at 10.30 pm?! I couldnt believe myself for doing this too, but its lk once in a blue moon, so just eat and forget bout the calories, fats things. And my bf just ditched me for Dr. House..haha..its ok, i understand how much you "admire" him..lol..

Ian putting up a forced "smiling face" for helping to finish up my lunch..lol

Love,
yin

Happy Birthday Wendy!

Hand up for Wendy Ong who turned 18 today!!Yohooo! I wish Wendy a joyful birthday and always happy. And hope that she will be with her love of life forever. I think she really loves him, the last time i talked to her during our meet up at metro point, she had this glow coming from her inner..ahahha! I wonder is this happened to everyone who is in love. Lol..But the most important is that she'll be doing great in her studies and stays healthy always.

Happy Birthday!

I had been so pissed of by a person yesterday on msn. No need random guess, its not you, Ian. That fella was some random guy who thought he can get everything he wants by hurting other ppl. What a jerk! And I'm suppose to apologize to Ian cuz i think i let my anger out on him. Sorrryryyyy, plssss? I know i shouldnt have done that,am I driving you crazy already? It just that I really felt lk strangling him. URGHHH! I'll definitely block him from my contact starting from now.

Love,
yin