Growing up is not fun...

Adult's life makes me feel afraid. So much responsibilities, so much worries, so much burden to take care off. How good if I can remain 18 forver? How good if I can turn bak time? How good if there's no worries at all..everyday just a simple and joyful life. How good..I'm not ready to face the real world yet, where everyone seems to be putting up different face to face each other every single day. Just came back from Jiu Jiu's house.My grandaunts, aunts and uncles were there. It's bout my greatgrandmother. She's pretty old di, 95 if I'm no mistaken. Recently, she starts talking bout "something"..you know..and her body is getting energy-less day by day. So, everyone is concerned bout her health and they did say that we have to be prepare cuz she might leaves us anytime soon. That's what they were discussing just now, on what to prepare and everything, in case she decides to go some time soon. But they said that it was actually not a bad news, given that she has been living for so long in this world, maybe its time to let her go. At least she does not suffer from any chronic sickness. I just hope she will be together again with the one she loves in her after life and be by the side of God.

Love,
yin

Happy Bithday My Dear!

Happy Birthday to Dear,

Happy Birthday to Dear,

Happy Birthday to Dear,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

You are 18!! Congratesss!!

Hehe, forgot to sing to you today. Hope you had a wonderful and happy outing today. Today, ,me and Ian went out to Metro Point to celebrate his birthday. Couldn't go far cuz he has to go work in the evening. But I did have a very good time with him. Met him up at 11.30 am. I was late 15 mins cuz havta go school to see Pengetua. Oppss..yea i know he shouldnt be the one waiting there some more on his birthday..sorryyyy..We went bowling first. My bowling skills still sucks, still have no idea why the balls couldn't move straight, sure will go side ways one. Ish ish, wonder izit kena jinx di?? We had two games, both also he won. Anyway, birthday boy " dai sai" so let him win this round, next time i'll balas dendam balik..heh heh heh :P After the games, went for lunch at a Japnese restaurant which I for got the name, "Shikiya" or something lk tat. It was quite nice, not bad since this is the 1st time I ate there. Stayed there for wuite long and chatted bout many stuffs. It is so great to be able to chat like that once in a while. After that, we walked around and went in Secret Resipe for my cake indulgence. OMG! So long i dint eat the cakes there di. Ian ordered chocolate moist cake while I ate Oreo Cheese cake. Yummyyy! Hahaha jie i know you'll be jealous. Sit there for quite some time again, looked at the workers there brought in all the freshly made cakes. So many, like about 100 cakes which can last for lk what..2 weeks to one month supply of cakes? lol..serious, not joking..We then went to the arcade to pass our time. Played the basketball challenge and some kind of gun shooting game. I can official declare myself sucks at this kind of shooting game. I game over not even half of the game mean while Ian struggled until almost 3 quaters of the game. Paiseh paiseh..haha! Got myself a new watch too, it so cheap, 10 bucks only. We went back about 4.30 pm cuz need to fetch him to work. Mom got Ian a brand new school bag while I gave him a pen with some words craved on it and made him a card. Must keep it properly ya, its one and only one in the world.

His birthday card from me

Check this out! haha..too excited di

~I love you~

Love,
yin

Hari Anugerah 2009

Sorry for long time missing from blogger, just got back my CPU yesterday cuz Ken Wai took it to reformat due to the enormous amount of virus in it. Oh and it works super damn fast now after reformatted, yes!! For the previous days when my comp went into coma, I used my phone to go online. A Strymyx techincian came to repair my line, its okay now, now to say very fast at least better than last time, hopefully it will last long though. And you wanna know the funny thing is? My internet became okay but my house telephone went out of order right after the techician went off.. WTH! Ya, so on last Saturday, I attended Hari Anugerah 2009 at Convent. Met back so many good friends and oh ya i found out quite a number of them are going to JPA interview too. And the best thing is Suk Che going to the interview same day as me. Hooray! Happy cuz most of my friends are either on Wednesday or Thursday. Nancy is the earlies among all of us, which is tomorrow! I guess cuz she needs to go back to NS camp. Btw, speaking of Nancy, she cut her hair so damn short, its even shorter than mine.. don't believe? Got prove below..

See, surprise!

Me, Suk Chee, and Nancy

Me and Suet Huey

I got 4 awards on that day, which were for best subjects (Est & Geography), 12 1As, and best science stream student. School gave each of the recipents cash and certificates. The good news is I had a trophy but the bad news is its a piala pusingan, so I havta give back to school one month later..yea i know what you thinking, wth right? Lol.. but I'm really happy cause it makes me feel that all my efforts all this while paid off. No regret for it, the satisfactory feeling is undescribable.

My family and I

After the Hari Anugerah, I straight away went to Kolej Yayasan Open Day in Lembah Beringin, Tanjung Malim. As the name has indicated, that place is really "ulu". The only surrounding is trees, nothing much. Its so peaceful and pristine, very suitable place to study. Had a chat with the headmaster there, Mr. Neil. Kyuem is a college specially for only doing A Levels either Londen or Cambridge. The population there is only very limited, 200 students per year. So, its quite hard to get in there, only those students with brightest mind are accepted. And 90 % of them have sponsorship from big companies and government linked agencies like Khazanah Nasional, UEM, Bank Negara, Sime Darby and etc. The students there even have uniforms which i think makes them look quite smart and not to forget good looking. Forgot to take any pictures from KYUEM. Really hoping can get in this college.

Yesterday, its my bro's turn to take his prizes. He got 2nd place and best student for BM. The crowd there were even bigger than Convent's one. Hardly can find a seat. Sad to say that he only got one sejarah reference book and a Bm novel. Crap right? pity him..His school top student for SPM is a guy, Lee Jia Jun with 11 A1 and 1 A2. Not bad huh..he looks very familiar to me. Wonder where I saw him before..?? I think its during Kuiz Perdana..i guess gua..don't care lar.I had to wait for bro to finish only can go back, mom and ad went back earlier cuz they went to Sg. Chua morning market. Took some pics there too.

Me and mom

Dad

Bro mengelamun there

So proud of him

Love,
yin

Love..

Live with love, full of love and free to love

1. Listen to your heart, for it is so much smarter than you are. When it feels right, feel the fear, and love anyway. There will never be fearless way of loving or living in your lifetime.

2. Don't let our fear of rejection and getting hurt kill your desires or steal your dreams.

3. Love is choice and if you embrace it wholeheartedly, you are never going to lose it.

4. Love teaches you to become a better human being. Restore your faith in love and become emotionally available to each other. Put your fears and your past behind and accept this lesson.

5. Become loveable by being loving. Learn to trust by trusting yourself 1st.

6. Giving in to love does not mean losing yourself.

7. Love is not a commodity that is supposed to make you happy.

8. Love has so many solutions than it has problems.

9. Once you can understand that love is not something to be found, rather it is in you to be shared, you can love wholeheartedly without fear.

10. Don't turn your back on love everytime it touches you, because when you give up on love, you give up on yourself.

You can be loved even if you are not perfect,

You can be loved just as you are,

You can be loved while keeping your course of life,

You can be loved without getting lost in love,

You can be loved while persuing your life's dream,

You can be loved; let go and let be,

Love,
yin

One peaceful day

Slept for 12 hours straight yesterday, have no idea why I'm so exhausted. Later on that day, I helped mom and dad for some gardening in the evening. Its been months since the last time we had gardening. Raked leafs and cut flowers while having a good laugh with bro. I found some adorable clovers at the garden and collected them up. Hope can make out something nice from them. It's just a peaceful and lovely day. Some pics from yesterday:

Dad trimming up the trees

Look what bro and i found in the garden, isn't that nice? Too bad they can't be eaten..

Love,
yin

Great Day!

Had a totally great and unforgettable day yesterday. Hanged out with Ian at Metro Point and Metro Kajang after eating lunch at Pizza Hut. I ate pizza twice alone in this week..swt..but still LOVE IT! hahahah! Looked around for any nice cake to buy for Mr. Ng cuz we're going to his party later on. Mr. Ng had a party for his ex-SPM 08 students in his house. We saw a nice fruit cake at Baker's Cottage so decided to buy it. It ended up an ice cream cake actually, but anyway Mr. Ng just msged me that the cake was very delicious so don't care lar its a ice cream or sponge or mousse cake. Something memorable and sweet happened between the journey from Metro Kajang to home..something that i prefer to keep only in my memory forever. Anyway, thanks my dear Ian=)Just realise how important the word "trust" in a relationship. K..so after that, we went back my hse for a while cuz i need to refresh myself before going to the party. I'm actually very glad to see my bro and Ian get along very well. My dad drove us to Mr. Ng's hse bout 6 pm. Actually we went there early cuz the plan was to help out Mr. Ng but our help was not required there since Mr. Ng's siblings and relative were there already to help. So, both of us took a stroll outside and walked all the way to Wei Wei and Ian's friend Chong Sen house ( Yes, they live next to each other). Its like a "walk to remember", the surrounding is so peaceful, the sun is setting, ahhh..you can imagine the scenery..lol..Dropped by Wei Wei hse for a while then walked back to Mr. Ng's hse again. The party really got started at 8 pm. Quite a number of student came, met my old tuitions friends there. Chatted a lot with them about their plans after this. We had steamboat yesterday, lotzsa food bought by Mr. Ng. There's this fishcake which has love shape, so cuteee.wonder where Mr. Ng bought them from. After makan makan, everone started to get high especially Ian..haha! He sang karaoke, not one song but damn MANY songs until i forgot how many. And hey! his voice is not bad after all. He sang " Truly Madly Deeply" for me too, so sweet of him:) Oh ya! Mr. Ng sang a a few songs too, omgosh, I couldnt believe Mr. Ng can sing so well. I guessed he must have practice singing every single day. The karaoke session continued even until after I went back about 12. Again..i wish i could turn back time :)Here are some pics from yesterday:

The cake for Mr. Ng

My lovely teacher

Us

Ian and me

Love this one:P

p/s: Jie, thanks for the "My Valentine" music score, I'll try it:)

Love,
yin

Monotonous days..

Finally, I'm updating my blog cuz someone got bored reading my old posts..haha!Life have turn back into monotonous again after last Saturday. Nothing much happening to me. I am just busy with all the scholarship stuff. 3 more essays to go..craapp. Very lazy to complete them. Move your mind, brain and butt, wenyin!! Until now, i had completed 9 scholarship forms, i can even do sambil tutup mata liao cuz every single one ask the same things. Today i went to Convent my certify my certificates. Have to go there twice today. Wanna know the reason? Its because there's this person here so dumb that she forgot to bring along her original certificates and teacher doesnt want to certify it without looking at the original one. So, this idiot had to drive all the way back again then went to school again.Yes! That idiot is no other than ME! I used like less than 10 mins to reach home cuz the traffic in the morning was smooth. so kinda speeded a little.The office lady asked me when i reached there again, "You tinggal sangat dekat kah? Cepatnya!". I told her my house "very near" only. hahahah! Lucky pejabat was opened and PN.A and Pn. H were there. Meet Jeeva and Mishantini there. They were there for the LCCI forms. Fortunately for me I meet Jeeva there because she told me that I have to take my new slip peperikssan with the LCCI grade on it. So, I changed my old one from pejabat. I'm quite happy cuz my LCCI got 1 also.Later on have to fill in the LCCI borang to obtain my certificate. Pn.H was jokingly saying that by the time she sign all my certs, her hand will go numb cuz i asked her to certify 5 sets. I'll be going to collect them on Friday.Then, I followed Jeeva and her sis to Chip Lee to buy some papers and went around Kjg alone searching for something.Went home after that.

I actually find myself looking forward for this Saturday to attend Mr. Ng's party. I bet there will be much fun there. But before that, essays......urghhh...help me!

This is how I feel currently

But no matter how busy am I, I still want to thank my dear for his support and most important your poem!haha..

Love,
yin

Tell me is this a dream?

If this is really a dream, then its a heck damn good dream and I'll choose to stay in this dream forever. If you know I'm dreaming, just don't wake me up, let me in it for eternity,can I. There's only one word to describe it..unbelievable! The moment of getting the result almost killed me, I'm serious! When you looked around, everyone is either crying or laughing or with no emotions, and you stood there, not knowing your faith. Will God answer your prayers? The moment of knowing the truth was the best moment in my entire life, i couldn't believe my eyes, my ears, my mind. Everything seems to be like a dream, it happened so fast, everything like revolving around you without your conscious. I remembered I hugged Glynn so tight, my tears just fell down as my heart went into a huge relief. Couldn't remembered how many ppl came about and said Congratulations! I don't remembered who I talked to, thanked, smiled,hugged, and cried. But i really appreciate all their supports. To every single person out there, thank you all! The thing i remembered was I called Dad. When I heard his voice, i broke down in front of everyone. I dint give a damn care bout my puffy look or anything. I cried for like 5 minutes before I couldn't speak properly to him. He kept on asked me to calmed down cuz he couldn't listened to what i was trying to say. Apparently, my tear duct couldn't close..lol..after telling dad, I called mom. Then I started crying again even until after I called Jie in Russia. Actually God answered not one but two of my prayers! I prayed hard for Ian too and seems like God loves him too. He got an excellent result and I bet he will be smiling while sleeping today. Congrats my dear! I'm really proud of you and my parents sent their deepest Congratulations to you too. What happened today was just...totally unbelievable! Last night I was telling my parents that most prob prob I'll only get lk 10 As...12 A1? Now i really do believe in miracle..

Went out around kajang with Glynn, Charissa, Grace and Nancy after all those drama. Lepak at McD for awhile, then went to pharmacy cuz Nancy needed to buy her collection of medicine before she go NS soon. Aww..I'll definitely miss her for that 3 months. After that, we walked around Metro Plaza, windowed shopping. Then, Charissa and Glynn decided to go to Hairazone, Charissa got her hair washed and trimmed while Glynn had a hair wash. Om gosh! Their hair was damn straight after all the washing and blow drying. Mom came by to pick me up at 4.30 then went home.

Love,
yin

A lovely day of March

I went out today to Mid Valley with Ian today since he got an off day from work. As usual, I met him up at the kjg train station at 10 am. If there's one thing we can improve on our relationship, I say we must adjust our time system..wait a minute...maybe its me the only person who needs to readjust it. Apparently, both of us run on a diff time system, he on "Ian's time system" while I'm on "Chen's family time system". The difference is his time syatem is always at least half an hour early, my system on the other hand usually late fwith no fix time. Haha..feel so bad cuz he have to wait every single time we went out. Ok..back to the topic of the day, so, finally met him up, wait for the train, chatted, laughed, talked more, reached MV at 10.45 am. We eventually decided to watch "Marley & Me" by Owen Wilson and Jeniffer Aniston. The story line was okay and simple, but damn, the last part was so touching, made me cried the hell out of me..i'm not going into details about that cry thing..haha..Later, we walked around, windowed shopping, ate a bread from Cinnfully Delicious which was exactly sinfully delicious, walked around, then ate again...at Delifrance. Spent sometime there talking to him, letting everything out, listening to his words, laughed, joked, and took pics. I love the "silent moment" between both of us..the way you look a me, your gaze seems to touch my soul. Since we still got loads of time after "2nd" lunch, we went to Pets Wonderland to take a look at the puppies there. Gawd!! They are still as cute ever. We did saw a puppy Husky there and Ian was so damn excited to look at them. Yea..he really wished to own one. Then, we walked around again, have a good time talking. So, after walking almost every floor, past by almost every single shops, we finally decided to go home since its already 5 something. Oh man..the train station was so packed.We actually waited for the third train arrived only we managed to get up on it. But anyway, since we not rushing to anywhere, so we dint really mind waiting cuz it gave us opportunity to stay with each other longer. I think I have changed a lot in the sense that I'm more open into expressing my feeling now, have I? All thanks to Ian who brainwashed me every single day and i too infulenced by him.I think jie will agree with this, cuz she know what kind a person am I last time. We reached kjg at 6 something, mom and dad came to pick us up, dropped him at Asa Jaya bus stop then finally reached home. That's so much fun today, oh i just wish i could turn back time again..

I'm munching the Famous Amos cookies now, can you believe it, at 10.30 pm?! I couldnt believe myself for doing this too, but its lk once in a blue moon, so just eat and forget bout the calories, fats things. And my bf just ditched me for Dr. House..haha..its ok, i understand how much you "admire" him..lol..

Ian putting up a forced "smiling face" for helping to finish up my lunch..lol

Love,
yin

Happy Birthday Wendy!

Hand up for Wendy Ong who turned 18 today!!Yohooo! I wish Wendy a joyful birthday and always happy. And hope that she will be with her love of life forever. I think she really loves him, the last time i talked to her during our meet up at metro point, she had this glow coming from her inner..ahahha! I wonder is this happened to everyone who is in love. Lol..But the most important is that she'll be doing great in her studies and stays healthy always.

Happy Birthday!

I had been so pissed of by a person yesterday on msn. No need random guess, its not you, Ian. That fella was some random guy who thought he can get everything he wants by hurting other ppl. What a jerk! And I'm suppose to apologize to Ian cuz i think i let my anger out on him. Sorrryryyyy, plssss? I know i shouldnt have done that,am I driving you crazy already? It just that I really felt lk strangling him. URGHHH! I'll definitely block him from my contact starting from now.

Love,
yin

A brand new experience...

For those that follow my blog, i guessed you knew about my interview yesterday. Its an interview conducted by Government of Singapore Investment Coperation at Holiday Inn Malacca. Since it is held in Malacca, woke up extremely early yesterday ( for my standard lar), then dad drove me there. Mom came along too to teman dad. So, we travelled at 6.30 am after dropped William at school, reached there at about 8.30 am. Lucky the traffic was smooth all the way too Malacca. Since my registration only starting at 9 am, dad brought us to McD for our breakfast. When arrived at the hotel, I can start to feel the tensed atmosphere in the boardroom where all the interviewees gathered for the introduction talk by Mr. Chang. He briefed us about GIC and this scholarship stuff. Everyone there "looked" damn smart and all lk brainnies. I felt like the most unprepared one there. Not to mentioned that I'm the youngest applicant there, most of them had finished up there pre-u and are on their way doing their degrees. I gave dad a "how-i'm- suppose-to-compete-with -them" look. Most of them have either a little or basic finance and investment knowledge already, meanwhile I'm like a total blur case there. I actually did 3 different tests not two as mentioned the other day, wrote a short essay and went in for interview. What's the most surprisingly shocked me was that I was required to write the essay in...5 Minutes!!! I thought i heard wrong. I almost uttered out the word "F**K* out loud..cuz the 1st thing on my mind was " Oh shit! I'll never be able to complete this task". Luckily, the topic was not that hard, we were asked to write about " A mistake to look too far". Given the teeny weeny anount of time, I just managed to complete almost three quater of the page. I don't even sure the examiner will be able to read my writing or not. As for the interview, I got this pretty lady named Miss Lily Ho, She was so friendly, its very comfortable to talk to her. She asked me a few ques lk why i choose this course, why I pick GIC, my cocuriculum experince and etc. I think i did well in my interview. I got to know a few new friends too like Sonia, Pui Ying and Crystal. They are all very nice not to mentioned their superb results in their hand. Since they have all started college, they told me about their college and everything. I completed everything at 3 pm.

While I was squeezing my mind lk nobody business, my parents went off for shopping at Mahkota Parade. Mom bought each of us a small keychain with our nickname on it including one for Ian. See, someone still wants to kick my arse, how "grateful" is that..But jie's "Winnie" ended up become "Winni" without the letter-e..hahah! You add it yourself lar next time. Reached home at about 5 pm, then slept until dinner time.*Phew* at least it over now..

I got two. Muahahaaaha!

Love,
yin

Love conquers all

Seems like my internet suddenly decided to come back to me..haha! The connection is damn good now. Why couldnt it be like that for the rest of the day? Half an hour ago, i was chatting with this guy named Christopher. He added me in MSN. He went for the GIC interview last year and shared his experience with me. He gave me the details on what's gonna happened on that day, how's the interview and the right etique for an interview session. He really a big help, he even tought me the right way to shake hands. Its my lucky day to know him. I found out that i needed to do two tests on that day, one on IQ test and another one is to write an essay in 15 MINS!! OMGOSH! 15 mins??!!! How much possible can i write in such a short period? one paragraph...maybe? I hope I'll get a not so hard topic. According to him, last year he got a topic about " Is money or education everyting?". That's not that bad, but still i need to time to time before i write my points. Hope everything goes well on Tuesday. I think i better start reading back all the recent newspapers for current issues. In case they questioned me about it.

I just read Ian's newest blog entry. That's so sweet of him, making me so touched, i really felt lk crying when reading. Just wanna tell Ian that I nvr regret for making that decision, for sending that msg to you and I hope i'll nvr will. You brighten up my days, shower me with your affections and love that i couldnt ask for more. Two months past really fast and I hope we'll keep on have our "two months" in the future ( if you get what i wrote). I'm glad for the moment where we share our joys, sorrows, emotions and burden together. I'm happy I'm the person you turn to when you are happy or sad and I'm thankful for you being with me whether during ups or downs. Our future will be full of obstacles that we couldn't foresee but with each other's support we can go through it, can we? Btw, just to let you know that I never be angry or sad with you before. You always managed to make me smile or crack a laugh with your humour. And you are one of my love ones that understand me the most. Thanks for your support to me for this coming interview. I'll keep that in my mind that you'll be with me "mentally" always. And I'm sorry if i made you cried before this..forgive me, will you? You know I don't meant to make you sad.You are one of the best things that happened to me. I really do love you :-)

Our 1st ever pic together, remember?

Going to sleep now cuz later on have to wake up earlier for doctor's appointment. After reading Ian's post, i bet i'll have a sweet dream later on. Bye bye!

Love,
yin

!@#$%^&

I'm updating from my cousin's hse. Internet connection at my hse still in coma state. Wonder how long will it take to wake up. Anyway,this will be a short one. Nothing interesting happening around me. Just wanna to tell jie that I couldnt meet you online maybe until Wed night. Same goes to Ian. Sorry ya! 2 days to go for my BIG DAY! Gonna have a nervous breakdown verryyyy soooonnn.. damn i think i start to have it already. Pray hard that the interviewers be very niceeeeeee to me. *Cross fingers*:-)


Love,
yin