My heart will always be with you..

Went out for lunch with Ian today at Yellow Corner. I reach kjg around 12 pm so I went to wash out some pictures and looked around Parkson and eventually bought another water bottle to replace the one I lost in KMK. Lucky it's exactly the same like the lost one, i love the design of the bottle. Since I have nothing to do d in Metro so went to Yellow Corner around 12.30 pm and waited Ian there while reading CLEO. Taylor Swift is on the cover this month and oh my! she soooooo gorgeous! Yay! Ian reached bout 1 pm, we shared a plate of mushroom fried rice since he's still full and I couldn't finished it up all by myself. Then, we went to Chip Lee and bought some stationery. We talked in the car for awhile, I finally have the courage to spill out my probs and feelings to him. Seriously, I couldn't hold them longer, there's like a time bomb in me that waiting juz for the moment to explode. N I not sure how long I can stand or ignore the feeling of jealousy. I'm not angry at anyone else except me. I can find a thousand reasons to hate myself but not him. It just... I dunno.....love I guess. Felt lot better after talking face to face with Ian. We even had an agreement, which is to spend time on chatting on Wed, Sat and Sun. Not that the rest of the days we can't talk to each other but less time. I want him to focus more on studies and this is also to help me to make myself adapt to that when I leave for college next time cuz I realised that what Mom say is true. After I start to study, I couldn't have so much time anymore to chat and spend time everyday with him while coping with my studies. I know it'll be very hard at first given that I chat with him almost every night now but then all it takes is time to make myself adapt to it. I rather I suffer now than crying over it when I start college. Ian, I hope you understand it. I'm sorry if all these make you sad, regret or fed up, but I need to do this.

Tomorrow, 29/5/09 will be our 5 months anniversary. When look back, there's so much things have changed. There's happy ones and not to forget sad ones. But I'll only craved those joyful times with you in my memory. I hope same to you also. I made a memory book for both of us to keep all those beautiful poems you made for me cuz I really love and appreciate every single of them. I took about one week to complete it, hoping that it will cheer you up. I hope it really does. I made a memory in my mind the picture of your surprise and happy reaction this afternoon when I showed it to you. Your reaction is like a baby who got his first toy, surprised, happy and at the same time wondering what is it. And I wont forget the way you look at me with those eyes that really melts my heart. I took some pictures of each pages in the book. Here they are~

The cover

Ian, no matter how many times I repeated, I don't get bored to say I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Happy 5 months anniversary to both of us!Yay!!

And Happy Dumpling Festival to everyone!

Love,
yin

Specially for my dear sis

Happy 21st Birthday jie!

Yeah!

*Throw confetti n sweets*

* You Strip Dancing*

HAHHAHA!

I know you'll do that if given a chance..Omg! Couldn't believe you're 21 d. It's seems lk just yeaterday we celebrated your 20th one. But trust me, we'll have another one this year. This's the 1st year we celebrate your bday using video cam and you thousands miles away from home. But it's okay, you'll be home in just 3 weeks. Jie, you are always my best sis ever. I miss the sisters time we had at home. Always love you! Everyone at home is waiting for your return. Really looking forward for it. Muacksss ^.^ Remember these pics(below)? Seriously, we need to take new n updated pics together when you back home..look at these and you'll know why..

p/s: To anyone reading this post, I know you are trying your best not to burst into laughter to look at my muka tembam and my childish hairstyle. Even I myself couldn't stop laughing when see this. So go ahead and laugh~~~


Love,
yin

Gossips!

Hot gossips are like hot potatoes, must be digested while its hot and fresh, if it cools down, it doesnt taste that nice anymore. It's marvellous during hot days lk now. Even better if comes with juicy gossips.Eh, I'm talking bout gossips not potatoes..lol..i think the hot weather makes me gone crazy. I'm gonna continue my hot hot fresh gossips/kaypo-ing with sis. Bye bye!

Exactly~~

p/s: It's totally normal if you don't get what I'm trying to say. But if you do, welcome to my world!

Love,
yin

This is what free person does~~

What is your mum listed as in your phone?
Mummy

Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Many girl friends but there's only one very special guy in my life, you know who you are..

What was the last thing you watched on television?
HK drama, D.I.E

Will tomorrow be better than today?
Hope so, if there's a change in my freaking fixed routines

Can you live without your cellphone?
No way!

One thing you are looking forward to?
starting college, b4 that going out with dear during school hols

Why did you cry the last time?
Cuz that f**kin JPA schship and Matriks

Would you rather fly, drive or travel by train?
Of course fly! but then for normal life, drive is better than taking the train, hate being squashed lk canned sardine

Are you tan?
err..i guess not, sun is my life time enemy

Did you cry today?
I had a wonderful day, no way I cried

Who did you last see in person?
Ian

Where did you get the t’shirt you are wearing?
My closet

Is there something that reminds you of someone everytime you see/hear it?
My necklace reminds me of him every single moment

What were you doing last night at midnight?
Finished up the last episode of HK drama until 1 am

Can you get over people easily?
No, depends on who that person and what he/she did to me

Could you date someone taller than you?
100 %Yes! I need someone taller than me..

Did you hug someone today?
Yes

Do you miss the way things used to be?
Part of it, lk high school life with my friends last time

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
Yes

Is your life anthing like it was a year ago?
Part of it still the same lk how i still love to sleep, but there's a lot of things changed too especially when comes to relationship part.

Have you ever thought of getting your nose pierced?
Not allowed, nvr think of that b4. It must hurt the hell out of me, freakay!

What holiday is your birthday closest to?
errr..Merdeka? July has no public hol i guess..

Are you going out of town soon?
Maybe, going to college in July

If you could change your eye colour, would you?
No, I'm happy with black

What are you thinking of doing right now?
Watch tv while waiting for Ian to on9

How are you?
Consider fine, still in one piece

What is your ringtone?
Kiss the rain by Yiruma

What happened at 10.00am today?
Still in the middle of my sweet dream

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Yup! Mr. Patrick Ng, my chemistry teacher

Do you ever get good morning text from anyone?
Yup, most of the time from Liang

Where is your cellphone?
here...

Money or love?
Both, but love as priority. Love makes my world brighter

Do your parents really know you?
Consider quite ok cuz I share a lot of my problems and my thoughts with my parents.

Do you think someone is thinking of you?
Err, i think so, maybe..

Do you think people talk about you?
Sometimes of course

What was the last thing you laughed at?
Bro's stupid jokes

How did you wake up this morning?
Phone alarm

What were you doing at 7 this morning?
Dreaming

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Yes! Almost everyone of them

How many texts are in your inbox?
200 plus..

Is the last person you texted male or female?
Male

Have you argued with anyone today?
No

Do you like your life?
Quite satisfy, hope can be more exciting cuz my life now seriously monotonous

What are you listening to?
Moments by Westlife

Are you shy?
sometimes!

What did you do yesterday?
Watched HK drama, sleep, eat, chat on9

What plans do you have for tomorrow?
Sleep, eat, on9, watch tv

Do you have any summer plans yet?
No, but hope to start college soon

Who was the last male you hugged?
Lol, Ian, 6 hours ago

Who was the last female you hugged?
eehhh, ermmm, Nancy, Jeeva and Bee Tao I guess, b4 I left KMK on last Fri

Who was the last male you spoke to before you went to sleep last night?
Bro, was asking him to turn off the TV. Mid year exam still can watch tv, haih..

What did you order the last time you had fast food?
Fillet O Fish from McD

What did your last incoming text message say?
Just a short one from Ian saying that his bro signed in his msn acc, not kena hack, lol

When was the last time you talked to an opposite sex on the phone?
This afternoon with Ian

What was the last movie you watched at home?
Madagascar 2

Who was the last person that called you?
Bee Tao, was wishing her happy birthday

Do you think someone is mad at you right now?
Hope there's no one..

Who do you want to tag?
Anyone reading this

Love,
yin

When everyone is busy with their lives, I felt hopeless..

Ya, i know i complain a lot lately. I'm turning in granny soon if I don't start working out my mind once again. Felt so lonely, since most of my friends had started school and dear is busy with his school studies and cope with his work. Even Nancy made a sudden decision to come back from KMK and going to start school tomorrow in KSH. When everyone around me start to get on their lives, I couldn't help feeling jealous and envy of them. To be serious, I couldn't wait to start studying too. This might sound funny if I said it 5 months ago right after SPM, but now after more than 5 months rotting at home, school/college turns out to be a place i really want to be where I can be with all my friends. At least someone is there to talk and joke with me, not facing the computer the whole day without anyone I can talk to. During these lonely periods, I really want to msg/call Liang to find out what he's doing, but then...i realise that he needs his own time and spaces too, given that now he had to cope with both his studies and work. So, I'll turn into another option, the TV!!

Today, I gathered with my girl friends at McD. We had another "Convent" girl (not!) joined us..hahhaaha, he self proclaim himself one of us too. I met Nancy at Chip Lee. She was actually not free to join us but she ended up with us too cuz I promised to fetch her back home. There's 9 of us at Mcd, ( Me, Ian, Nancy, Jia Wern, Glynn, May Yee, Pei Qi, Mei Qi and Michelle). Suppose to be more ppl but the rest can't make it. We ate our lunch until 2 plus, then went Chip Lee again cuz the girls wanna to buy some books and stationery. I then fetched Nancy, May Yee and Glynn back 1st b4 picking up the twins. Eh wait!! (Forgot liao) Its Ian's turn to drive us this time. Thank God everyone arrived home safely..hahhaha! Me and Ian chatted in the car for a while b4 I sent him back home.As usual I'll be complaining this and that and he'll think from the positive sides. Sometimes I wonder, who can stand all my whining and grumbling besides you. I think one day you'll get fed up with it and ask me to shut up..hehhe! It's almost like 10 days more b4 he'll be free to go out with me. Argh! I just can't wait for someone to bring me out..anywhere will do, just get out of my house. Mamak stalls will be a nice idea too~~

I got addicted to this song played by pianist Yiruma. It's called Kiss The Rain. The melody is great. Here's the video clip link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCSe66pWNmc. Enjoy!!


Love,
yin

Hermits, ma babies..

My 1st outing after one whole week in Kedah is went out with Ian. He came by my house to pick up the F6 books. Then, we went out for lunch in Pizza Hut. Pizza tasted super delicious after one whole week of consuming breads and biscuits. Ian drove this time and I think after this he'll become the driver everytime we go out..hehehehe! After lunch, I buy us an ice cream from BR then walked around metro point. Gosh, so nice to see Liang after one week of suffering in KMK. So relieved to hug him...to chat with him,...to see him. We came across a stall selling small pets and we saw some hermit crabs. They're soooooooooooooooooooooooo cute. Ian bought me 3 of them, cuz buy 2 free 1. I named them Jack, Jacob and JZ. Jacob is the active one, the other two keep on sleep only, like lifeless. I hope they'll last long, at least keep me accompany for a few months b4 I start college. Whoever wants to eat them or hurt them, over ma dead body. Thanks dear!! I love you!! *Muackss* You're the best!

From left: Jacob, JZ and Jack

Love,
yin

Orientation week @ KMK, Changlun

So many events had happened since last friday. Decided to go KMK on Wed, spent the whole day with Ian on Friday and on that day itself i expereince my first heart broken when i found out that I was not selected for JPA scholarship. I really felt my heart brken into pieces, I couldn't hold back myself anymore, I cried the whole night before to Kedah. Dad kept assuring me that he's help me to settle everything here, to appeal and all the stuff, and kept remind me not to be afraid. All those words made me felt a lil relieved but at the same time, I kept wondering, why did I studied so hard all this while, worked hard to achieve my best results not only in my studies, but also for my cocurriculum, and all I got was nothing. But then, I realised God must have His own reason for that. And I realised it the past whole week in Kedah. One week in KMK was unforgettable. There was happy and sad times there. The happy part was that I made many new friends from all over the M'sia. Although out of the 2000+ students, only 98 students are non-bumi there. And all these 98 students are very united as we realised we are the minority there. Everyone is so friendly and help each other in many ways. We had moral activities every single day during the Muslims prayers periods, and during these sessions, we had seniors from last year batch to guide us on KMK life and how to cope with both studies and cocurriculum activities. For the 1st two days, they were quite strict to us, for bring punctual and learn to listen instructions, but then after a few days with them, they were almost like our close friends already, chatting with us and tried their best to answer our quiestions. On the other hand, the sad and worst part of this orientation weeks was the hectic shcedule. We had to wake up at 5 am everyday, bath in the icy cold water not to mention we had to practically rush for the toilets as the number of cubcles not enough. At 6 am, we had to gather at the lecture hall for our morning moral activities while the muslims prayed. Then at 7 am, we had our senamrobik until 8 am. At 8.30 am, we'll be in the tutorial class with our mentor until 12.30 pm. Finally we had our break from 12.30 until 2 pm, but usually we take those time to bath. After 2, we continue the activity until 4 pm. There's one hour break between 4 to 5 pm. Then, got riadah petang from 5 to 7 pm. After 7, we had our moral activities until 9 pm then proceded to talks in either lecture hall or dataran pelajar until 11 pm. Me and Nancy practically survived only on biscuits and breads for the whole 5 days. We even need to eat while walking from one block to another there's no dinner time for us. Not the mention how huge the whole college is and we havta walk in baju kurungs. Our day usually ended after 12 am after bathing and washed the clothes. The the very same activities continue for the next four days. The students were divived into 8 sport houses. Me, Jeeva, Kavitha and Bee Tao were in Gamma while Nancy was in Theta. Me and Nancy represented our houses for Volleyball competetion for the Mini Sukan. Theta got 2nd while my team won 3rd. It was really fun minus the hot sun as I had a very great teammates. Although we didn't get 1st but our spirit was there. I got bruises from the games on my knees and hands but it was worth it. We had Mahjis Penutupan and Sambutan Hari Guru on Friday. The seniors showed us a few vidoes on the events they organised during CNY and Deepavali last year. They seems to be pretty exciting and if I'm there, I'll contest for the student's body posts. A lot of people ask why I came back. The main one was as I'm in acount stream, I need to study 3 out of 4 subjects in BM which then i need to switch back on Eng when i enter U. Dad was not happy with it so decided to bring me back to study A level, most prob in Sunway if I didn't get YSD scholarship. The only thing I'm worry to come back is my friends there especially Nancy. I know she also wants to come back together with me. It really made me sad to see her cried the other day. But then I keep on telling myself I couldnt stop myself from doing what I want just to make other people happy. Ya, so now I'm back home, sleeping on my lovely bed, chatting with my dear.

Paddy fields

Me and Nancy in front of Muzium Padi

Me and Nancy on the registration day
Our hostel
My mentor classmates
Gamma vb team members

Me and Jeeva

Having a match with Cima

A.F attending my ankel which was bitten by insect

Take oneTake two

The guys' vb teams..their games were very exciting

Majlis Hari Guru

Lunch time on the way back from Alor Star

Bruises on my knees T.T

Love,
yin

Hi from Kedah

Yohoo! I finally on9 in Kedah. Cant blog v long. Let me show you guys some pics:

Me and Nancy in front of the Istana

Paddy field is all we can have there..

Got to go now..i'll try to on9 asap after this..bye bye!*Lotsa hugs and kisses* for everyone :)

Love,
yin

To Jie and all my friends

I'm going off to kedah in 4 hours

PERMANENTLY

MAYBE

I DINT GET JPA

CRAP!

This is most prob the last post for this two weeks until i got my laptop or I miraculously get back here. All of you have to take care ya especially jie! Jie, i hope i got enough time to spend with you b4 you go back to Russia. Looking forward to see you soon. Look like i might need to celebrate my b'day in Kedah. Haih..what to do..Jie, you talk more often with mom and dad k since i wont be able to chat with them for quite sometime. I'm gonna miss you all a lot. Love you! *Muackss*

p/s: sorry i dint blog bout Mother's day. Here's some pics to see:

Love,
yin

To my dear Liang..

No matter how far we are, you still have my heart with you

Hey dear, erm..i don't know where to start. Since like now i know the JPA result di, most prob i won't be back until August break then...I'll definitely miss you a lot at there. You must take care ya! Don't work to hard, take care of your health and eat more and on time. I hope can see you get fatter when I'm back. Try not to have a new scar in any parts of your body too. Be careful always, whenever you drive or go out. Don't put too much preasure on yourself bout your work, and have fun with the kids ya! I promise you I'll definitely take care bout myself, wont be so lun chun and be back in one piece.LOL..I had a lot of wonderful memories with you today and I'll take all that with me to Kedah. Pls check out on my bro. Make sure he study ya..I'll ask him to update you with everything. Looking forward to see you again.Muackss *hugs for you*

~I LOVE YOU ALWAYS~

p/s: If got any girls kacau you, tell me too. I fly back straight. *sharpening parang*..hahaha..take care Liang..

Love,
yin

clUmPSy

wtf!

Hurt myself again !@#$%@#$

This time is my poor little thumb. Had a plaster all over it. I realised that at least once a month I'll have a plaster stick to which ever part of my body. Even Ian also say I very "lun chun" one, capable of hurting myself everywhere i go. Tell me, how to cure clumsiness?? Haih..

Love,
yin